the past few days.

Eph. 6:12 "For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places."

1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world."

Ps. 27:1 "The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?"

In the past couple days, I've realized more than ever what a spiritual battle we're in the middle of. I've known that since I started going to True Vine/Gamaliel's Council, but it's so much more real to me now. Never have I been attacked so strongly and frequently... I feel like every time I turn around, I'm rebuking another demon and praying to God for strength. I guess Satan knows how much more of a "threat" I'll be to him once I move out (73 days) because he's working overtime as I get closer to that day. It definitely doesn't help that I'd been slacking off in the disciplines so I wasn't on my guard like I should be. Well, Satan's been telling me all sorts of lies-many of which are about me and Chris- and causing all sorts of anxiety. Once I'd been turned into a somewhat nervous wreck, I got this massive headache. I didn't think much about it because it's pretty common for me to get one when a storm front comes through, like it was on that day. I went to bed and the headache went away, but came back worse shortly after I woke up. I mentioned it to Chris, and he said to pray over it, so I did...turns out it wasn't from the storm front. It took ten minutes of intense prayer and rebuking to make it go away. After that I was exhausted, but thankfully I haven't been attacked since. That was yesterday, and needless to say I've been much more consistent in my disciplines since all this started a few days ago. I guess I needed a wake-up call to get me back on track! I do know that this whole battle is much more "real" to me now.. but hey, that's a good indicator that I'm doing something right.

This seems like a good way to end this post: "Now to Him who is able to strengthen you according to my gospel and the preaching of Jesus Christ, according to the revelation of the mystery that was kept secret for long ages but has now been disclosed and through the prophetic writings has been made known to all nations, according to the command of the eternal God, to bring about the obedience of faith- to the only wise God be glory forevermore through Jesus Christ! Amen." - Romans 16:25-27

No, I haven't disappeared off the face of the planet :)

I know, I know. I haven't posted in forever. So here's a quick synopsis of what's happened in the last few months:
1. Graduated High School!!! (Yay, I'm on to greater things!)
2. I'm now free from my anxiety for the most part. (Take that, Satan!)
3. I registered for classes at LU. I'm taking 17 credits this fall but a couple are really easy classes. So hopefully I'll stay sane ;) I'll find out in June who my roomie is...that's gonna be a good experience for my somewhat-shy self. But hey, the bubble's gotta pop sometime. Haha.
4. I'm not totally sure what, but God's been "poking" me about something that's gonna happen this fall when I start at LU. It's really exciting to know He's got a plan for me when I get there! The hardest part now is waiting to find out what :)
5. I got a laptop for school. (Cool, but not so exciting compared to some of the things I just listed!)
6. God confirmed my spiritual gifts- I'm a mix of exhorter, pastor, and mercy.

Of course, there's been so many other things happening but those are some of the major things. As always, I've been spending a lot of my time with Chris, at work, GC, devos, working out,...etc. I'm not doing anything over the summer except the usual, but working more hours and *going back out to the stable to ride for the summer!!!* So I'll try to post more often now that I have more time to...but for now I'm gonna try to sleep since it's 2 am. Oh, and I got a new email address so send anything to soleado.cielos@gmail.com now. See ya!

There's something to be said for waiting...

In the past month and a half it's seemed like my life at the moment is really coming together. A huge source of worry for me was where I'd go to college, and being a senior, of course that's something people asked me all the time! And then there was my job situation...it wasn't long before I got so bored with working at DSW. My energetic, high-capacity nature couldn't handle straightening up shoe boxes for five hours at a time! So those two issues were really a burden to me. I started praying often for God to somehow show me a way to get outta where I was. Well, it wasn't long before I got an invitation to Lindenwood's open house day. I went to that, and decided I really liked the school! At the end of the program they looked at my academic record and said I could go there for $2,600 per year- that's including room/board, meal plans, etc. Soon after I decided to take them up on that offer, I realized what a gift from God it was. It's a smaller school, close to home, and I won't need crazy student loans or anything. What a relief to have that taken care of! And then about a month ago, I started looking for a new job. After a couple days of hearing "Well, we're not hiring right now but we can keep your application for up to six months..." I was about ready to give up. On my way home, I figured I'd stop by Bread Co as a last resort. I talked to one of the managers and decided to apply there. The next day, she called and wanted to set up an interview. They said I was hired and could start after job training; wouldn't ya know, the training day was within a few days of when my two weeks' notice at DSW would end. I've worked at Bread Co for a few weeks now and I love it! It's the perfect job for me; it keeps me busy, I didn't take a pay cut, my managers are awesome, and they work around my schedule. You can't imagine how incredibly grateful I am for God's provision I've seen lately in my life. It's so reassuring- I had a hard time at first trusting God to take care of things in His time. But I did, and He gave me what I thought would be fairly impossible to have. I'm really glad He knows what He's doing :)